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| i really dont know where to start . it began good , & i loved u more than anything . but next thing u know i noticed that u didnt feel the same way . u didnt want a relationship , u just wanted me to be there because u knew that i would stay . u knew that i loved u enough to put up with ur BS . so i stayed & i endured the pain . yes i did wrong too , but i dont think it will ever amount to how u treated me . u didnt wanna make plans , u didnt wanna talk , u never showed me the love u showed any other girl . & now u say "i shoulda appreciated u more" . u damn right ! but thats ALL u had to say . & the funny thing is i still think that u dont care & u never will . what did i do to u ? i know i started arguments & i tried my best to change for u , so i wouldnt run u away . but i didnt notice that i ran u away way before that , or u were never really that into me in the first place . u even put ur hands on me . . . why ? i dont want this back but i do want an understanding . i learned so much from u , and in a way i hate u . ur a piece of shit , u suck ! u disrespected me , u embarassed me in front of MY FRIENDS more than once . & u know what i did ? i took it . . .because i loved u . i thought that u loved me just the same but ig i was wrong . i thought that u felt the same way when we hugged & i got butterflies , & when we kissed . but really , i was just there bc u didnt want anyone else to have me . but SOMEHOW , all this is my fault . bc i left u for a guy that was READY to be in a relationship , unlike u . but after 5 months , i was back w/ u . TWO YEARS . . . two years man . a waste of my life . i looked like a fool , chasing after u for two damn years . the whole time , u didnt care as much as i did . i kept it all in , in fear that u would leave . in fear that i would annoy u . why didnt u let me go when u lost feelings ? why did u let me run around like i was really something to u ? i should have known that from the first time we broke up , we would never get back together bc u kept putting it off . u know what , fuck u . i dont wanna be friends . i dont wanna be anything . i can forgive u , but i will NEVER forget . my first love fucked it up for everybody . now im not the same . im doing the same things u did while we were in a relationship . im on the verge of ruining a PERFECT relationship bc of u ! NO CLOSURE=NO CHANGE . i sent u a 10 page text , telling how i felt about the situation . all i asked for was closure , and i got a damn 2 page text back . a simple-minded , no thought text . is that really what i deserve ? how would u feel if somebody treated u the same way ? u deff. wouldnt like it . but lets just say Karma's a bitch . i dont want revenge , but i really want u to feel the way i felt . i went through it for too long . . . to not be the last female standing ? to NOT have all of your attention? to NOT be the one for u ? u could have told me . . . i want to go back to the way i was before i fucked with ur stupid ass . well , i will never send this to u . thats a waste of time , i will only get a 2 page text back anyway . w/e, fuck u . i have a boyfriend that will give the world for me & i will do the same . | | |
| "So she slips in & out of relationships, getting chopped up psychologically, spiritually, and sometimes even physically She has been taught very little about what structure & family really means. Learning as she goes through each experience, her life is a collage of mistakes, scars, and smiles. Maybe when she's 28, just maybe, she figures out what being a woman really means." - Sister Souljah - “A Lady Kisses But Never Tells. Listens But Doesn’t Believe. And Leaves Before She Is Left”. “I’ve come to realize that people are a lot like boomerangs. You can let them go—let them ride on the wind a little bit. If yours are the right hands, eventually they’ll come right back to them.” (Ecstasy by Shavon Moore) “money talk so have a convo in this bitch w/ me" - Wayne. you can either get w/ the real , or get w/ the rest - Drake . When one woman won't, one will. And if you're the I-Don't-Do-That-Type, then you
would lose your man every time. An unhappy man will stray in a heartbeat (Bad Girlz 145) “And for the first time in my life, I had that feeling. You know, like the world is moving all around you, all beneath you, all inside of you, and you’re floating. Floating in midair. And the only thing keeping you from drifting away is the other person’s eyes. They’re connected to yours by some invisible physical force and they hold you while the rest of the world swirls and twirls and falls completely away.” – (Flipped 14) | | |
| "i know you say you love me girl,
problem is you prolly tell that sh** to everybody
so, we hear you talking boo
but we just don’t believe you." – Drake
what he dont know won't hurt him, riqht? i'ma talk to him on the side, my bf won't know. i don't wanna hurt him , i love him too much . thatsz what most females sayy ! . this is exactly why relationships is like they is now ! you do all this stuff on the side, and say "what he dont know wont hurt him" . but when he fiqures out , quess who's hurt in the end?! the FEMALE ! whyy ? because the niqqa feel like he wasn't worth the truth , & niqqas dont qive a million chances like femaless . so the female is sittinq there , lookinq & feelinq dumb , b/c they should've kept it 1OO in the first place .
i feel like niqqas dont trust females no more . . . i wouldnt either . femalesz always think that a niqqa is cheatinq . if yue dont qo no proof , please , stfu . dont qo cheatinq on him if yue not for sure that is he doinq the same to yue . in the end , yue qone look dumb . be loyal to a niqqa so one day , he qon be able to look back & say "i shoulda never let her qo . she was a qood chick" . most niqqas cant do that . females wanna take a qood niqqa for qranted . "aww , he aint qon break up w/ me , he dont no nothinq " . he qon fiqure out . its called Karma . females wonder why niqqas cheat ? i dont even wonder anymore . ik . it only take ONE , juss one , qirl to make a niqqa think that we all aint sh** . same qoes for females , but females take more than niqqas . the point is "what he dont know wont hurt him" doesnt do anythinq for anybody . it only make a relationship worsee .
don't think he will break you? he prolly will . think he's cheatinq? he prolly is , because u doinq the same thinq . most females arent a priority to niqqas anymore , because they don't make themselves worthy of that ! "dnt ask , dont tell" policy ? save that for the parents . "what he dont know wont hurt him?" put yourself in his shoes . females wanna qet madd when they niqqa keep secrets , so why can u ? femalesz a tripp . to find a qood niqqa is rare , cause of females like i just described . | | |
| So , there is this Aeropostale contest I entered where I can win money for college. To win, you have to have a large number of votes. Trust and believe, we don't have enough money to pay for me to go to college after i graduate. I'm not saying that I'm poor, but I'm not high class (financially) either. So , it only takes like 5 seconds. Please vote for me. vote for me : http://www.realteens2010.com/contest-entry/show/2178/ | | |
| . . . So you can appreciate them when they're right. In he course of 2 days, I've lost 3 friends. People that have been there for 2, almost 3 years, have walked out of my life. I miss them so much, but my pride is in the way of asking them to forgive me.
I've lost someone that could really love me. I told him not to wait for me, because i dont give a fuck about him anymore. We argued almost an hour, and now he's gone. I have a boyfriend, but i feel like if my bf messes up, that guy will be there for me. Now, I'm not so sure. How could i be so immature? I say the dumbest things and make the dumbest mistakes. If he really loves me, he'll always be there, right? Or did i mess up everything. I've lost someone that I've been knowing since the first day of 7th grade (I'm a freshman now). She has given me so much advice, picked me up when i cried, and made me laugh when I needed it the most.
She's been one of my best friends ever since I met her. She's been the weirdest person I know, but I lost her too. Just because of a pointless argument.Usually she's the peacemaker of the group, but this time was different I guess. And last but not least, I've lost her sister. Her sister was like an older sister I've never had. We used to laugh at the dumbest things, but ever since I got into an argument with that guy I just talked about (which is like a brother to her), then we've been going at it. I never knew that it would come to this. "If you gain too much pride, you'll lose everything" one of my friends said . I'm starting to believe her
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